My days with Nathan are slowly dwindling down. We have a total of 6 days left and they are speeding by. I am both in full acceptance and full refusal of his leaving for the military.
I am sure that these feelings would be completely different if I wasn't pregnant. Five months ago I was fine with his absence. Now if I dwell on it for too long I am on the brink of tears. The thought of him missing the experience of our first pregnancy makes me upset. Another part is that he doesn't show it the same way that I do. Of course I am more vocal and visual with my feelings then Nathan. So this result doesn't surprise me.
I love Nathan and after my selfish, emotional, and irrational thinking I do support his decision.
The clock is ticking with our time together and it will continue to tick with our time apart. Right now it's speeding full throttle these days and the moment he is gone it will slow down to the speed of the second hand on a clock.
With his return he will be bring the metronome with him at high rhythm. In the short time of his arrival we will become parents and moving off to live as a family.
The whole thing is exciting, scary, and I can't wait to begin it all.
I am sure that these feelings would be completely different if I wasn't pregnant. Five months ago I was fine with his absence. Now if I dwell on it for too long I am on the brink of tears. The thought of him missing the experience of our first pregnancy makes me upset. Another part is that he doesn't show it the same way that I do. Of course I am more vocal and visual with my feelings then Nathan. So this result doesn't surprise me.
I love Nathan and after my selfish, emotional, and irrational thinking I do support his decision.
The clock is ticking with our time together and it will continue to tick with our time apart. Right now it's speeding full throttle these days and the moment he is gone it will slow down to the speed of the second hand on a clock.
With his return he will be bring the metronome with him at high rhythm. In the short time of his arrival we will become parents and moving off to live as a family.
The whole thing is exciting, scary, and I can't wait to begin it all.