With the resent release of the Deadpool movie I knew I was gunna have to find a babysitter. Only thing is, I never left my daughter with anybody other then my mother. And I'm all the way in Japan while she is all the way in Florida.
The daycare on base is only
Monday - Friday 0800-1830. The movies are open on the weekends. We haven't really made any friends. With all that said I knew I had to do something stupid.
On Facebook the base has a Babysitter Page.
Yes. I did it. Not only did I get a stranger. I got an internet stranger. Those always seem to as the worse.
I've read so many stories about how a babysitter has hurt the child. And I'm aware that accidents happen. Hell, there have been times were I've almost had an oops here or there. You learn from it. Your infant wiggles in your arms and it almost feels like the end. But now I hold Lillith in a death grip. I was rolling her around from belly to tummy and back in day and her arm didn't tuck right. She cried and I stopped. I felt so bad. Clearly she was fine and it more or less just scared her. But the image of my breaking her arm was implanted in my head.
When you hear a story its normally one of three things.
The daycare on base is only
Monday - Friday 0800-1830. The movies are open on the weekends. We haven't really made any friends. With all that said I knew I had to do something stupid.
On Facebook the base has a Babysitter Page.
Yes. I did it. Not only did I get a stranger. I got an internet stranger. Those always seem to as the worse.
I've read so many stories about how a babysitter has hurt the child. And I'm aware that accidents happen. Hell, there have been times were I've almost had an oops here or there. You learn from it. Your infant wiggles in your arms and it almost feels like the end. But now I hold Lillith in a death grip. I was rolling her around from belly to tummy and back in day and her arm didn't tuck right. She cried and I stopped. I felt so bad. Clearly she was fine and it more or less just scared her. But the image of my breaking her arm was implanted in my head.
When you hear a story its normally one of three things.
1. Someone is an asshole and did it on purpose.
2. Someone is a dumbass and did it on purpose but for some reason they didn't think it through and someone got hurt.
3. Someone where an accident happens not by their terms.
2. Someone is a dumbass and did it on purpose but for some reason they didn't think it through and someone got hurt.
3. Someone where an accident happens not by their terms.
I do understand that accidents happen. But I don't want them to happen to my daughter. In the end everything went alright. I knew Lillith was being fussy when the woman messaged me asking if she has a passy. I had to respond with no. Because she sucks her thumb and she would never take one. I felt upset because I knew that that meant my baby was tired and cranky.
Nathan made in calm down and let it go. Telling me how the house seemed nice, the woman didn't seem to suck, and that we do live on a military base. That everything was going to be fine.
Nathan made in calm down and let it go. Telling me how the house seemed nice, the woman didn't seem to suck, and that we do live on a military base. That everything was going to be fine.
she ended up sending me this picture of her sleeping. I suddenly felt at peace. And a little jealous. Aha.
I'm supposed to be the only person to put her to sleep. Nathan and I. No one else. I think that as a mother you want to be first in your children's eyes. You want to be the person that does things the best. So the fact that she can go to sleep for someone else bugged me.
It makes sense though. She is a simple creature and who ever is going to supply her with her needs is all she needs. She doesn't have an emotional thought behind the hand that does it.
I knew my thoughts were overreacting when Nathan looked at the picture and thought that it was great.
Yaaayyy! Everything has gone well in his eyes.
We picked her up and everything WAS fine.
Which is good because I didn't want anything to happen. But I kept thinking that something would. Why would I think of ill will on my child. Parenthood is a crazy thing.
That's all for now.
I'm supposed to be the only person to put her to sleep. Nathan and I. No one else. I think that as a mother you want to be first in your children's eyes. You want to be the person that does things the best. So the fact that she can go to sleep for someone else bugged me.
It makes sense though. She is a simple creature and who ever is going to supply her with her needs is all she needs. She doesn't have an emotional thought behind the hand that does it.
I knew my thoughts were overreacting when Nathan looked at the picture and thought that it was great.
Yaaayyy! Everything has gone well in his eyes.
We picked her up and everything WAS fine.
Which is good because I didn't want anything to happen. But I kept thinking that something would. Why would I think of ill will on my child. Parenthood is a crazy thing.
That's all for now.