Making friends has been the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Not just now but for as long as I can remember. When I look back at all the friends I've ever had I didn't make on my own. Most of them.
I had a friend the lived in the house behind me when I was around 5 years old. I only ended up being friends with her because she had an older brother and he was friends with mine. That was when I lived in New York for those short 4 years of my childhood. When I moved to Florida I didn't make my friends they made me. Two girls from my new neighborhood walked up to my door and told my parents they they saw me in school. And BAM! I had just made friends with Katie and Madison.
That was the start of my friendship tag chain that stretched the length from 1st grade to Graduation. Meeting people through people and so on a so forth.
I have never really made a friend of my own. Maybe 2-3 through out the years.
I had a friend the lived in the house behind me when I was around 5 years old. I only ended up being friends with her because she had an older brother and he was friends with mine. That was when I lived in New York for those short 4 years of my childhood. When I moved to Florida I didn't make my friends they made me. Two girls from my new neighborhood walked up to my door and told my parents they they saw me in school. And BAM! I had just made friends with Katie and Madison.
That was the start of my friendship tag chain that stretched the length from 1st grade to Graduation. Meeting people through people and so on a so forth.
I have never really made a friend of my own. Maybe 2-3 through out the years.
Scared of Rejection?
I didn't think that I could be scared to be rejected by strangers. But apparently its a thing. I'm scared that they won't like the childish things they I like and throw me to the curb. I am supposed to be an adult and I shouldn't be scared to do adult things. I feel like this is a thing that I've encounter in the past 4 years since graduation.
To Clingy?
The worst comment I've every got from someone is that I'm a stalker. It was the most embarrassing thing my ears have ever heard. I've noticed that when I meet people and have decided that we could be friends I could go over board. BUT since I've noticed that I've laid back on talking to people, inviting people places, or really even communicating to them. I haven't found a good medium I guess.
I am in a new place and start making friends a new. I hope that all goes well. Wish me luck.